I’m a thinker. I can’t help it.
I’m also a worrier. Can’t help that, either.
I have to add “Control Freak” to that list, too, while I’m at it.
This combination is a deadly trifecta for anyone who enjoys, well, sleeping. Or relaxing.
Normally I don’t sleep much anyway; harboring extreme jealousy of those who claim to get their eight hours every night, I usually hover around the six-hour mark when it comes to the actual amount of time I’m in bed. Sleeping time runs anywhere from four to five hours.
When many of you are enjoying your zzzz’s, I’m solving important problems, like “what happens if something that is totally out of my control actually comes to pass; what would I do?”, or “how many creative ideas can I come up with that will solve a problem that I already attempted to solve to the best of my ability?”, or “what would have been a better retort to that co-worker, when she said that thing to me at 9:30 this morning?”
To be fair (to myself), I don’t waste all of my thinking time considering how I could have done things differently; I also think about useful things in the middle of the night, such as who I will ask to sponsor my book launch events, what I could make for dinner that would be exciting and different, and how I’m going to make time for my workout the following day.
But midnight thinking can be painful the next day. The headaches, the exhaustion, and even the stress of not coming up with a blasted solution so I can get something off my mind weigh heavily on me.
The answer, of course, is to start shutting my brain down earlier in the evening. I’ve already given up soda, so caffeine isn’t a factor. I could turn off my computer, watch less television, change into pajamas earlier…
Honestly though, doing all of that will cause me to worry all night about what I should have accomplished, instead of shutting everything down. There has to be another way.
I’ll think about it.
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